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28th-Feb-2017 08:34 pm - Sexy times

I thought I'll be super disappointed in our s

8th-Feb-2017 08:49 pm - Today

Busy day.

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23rd-Jan-2017 05:20 am - #Adulting

When is a threat a threat?

Are all feelings bad?

How has hedonism become the goal

Like the bottomless pit to nowhere?

How did life get so hard

And growing up such a painful task

Does the butterfly know how beautiful

It is after it gets out of the cocoon?

Or does it think it ugly with its prints as battle scars

Does it become like Buddha and just be

Without consciousness and labeling

Maybe that's what makes it so pretty

11th-Jan-2017 10:45 am - Writing Purge
Sige itest nga natin ito.
Kelangan ilabas ang nalalaman.
Bakit ba kinakabahan.
Ayaw itrabaho eh kayang kaya naman.

Ano ba ang kinakatakot.
Eh ang importante lang ay umusod.
Ano ba ang kinakaba?
Di ka naman tinitira.

Sige na Lea gawa na
Kayang kaya mo iyan
Huwag na ikaw pangunahan
Nang takot at pangangatwiran

Magaling ka tandaan mo yan
Lahat ng tao ay may kinakatakutan
Eh ano ngayon kung magulo
Ang importante ay matapos ito

HAAAAY Baket ba hirap na hirap ako gawin ito. Di ko talaga maintindihan. Wala naman mangyayari sa akin kung gawin ko siya. Baket hirap na hirap ako simulan? Tulong Lord gusto ko na po matapos ito. Tulungan ninyo po ako please please please.
Wag Ka Nang Umiyak

Wag ka nang umiyak, sa mundong pabago-bago
pag-ibig ko ay totoo
ako ang iyong bangka, kung magalit man
ang alon, ng panahon, sabay tayong aahon

Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin, kapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan

Wag ka nang umiyak, mahaba man ang araw
uuwi ka sa yakap ko <3 <3
wag mo nang damdamin kung wala ako sa ’yong tabi
iiwan ko ang puso ko sa ’yo
at kung pakiramdam mo’y wala ka nang kakampi
isipin mo ako dahil puso’t isip ko’y
nasa yong tabi

Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin, kapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan

Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin, kumapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan
…hindi kita pababayaan
…hindi kita pababayaan

Wag ka nang umiyak.
10th-Jan-2017 06:00 pm - Wonderful 2017
Thank you Lord for this wonderful life.

Last night, I almost got hit by a truck. I was in the back of a motorcycle without a helmet when a wild L300 appeared. Rushing and beeping like a mad man to the intersection we were crossing. Its light blaring directly on my face. If a heart could skip a beat, mine did. That whole incident shook us both off our mini depression. We even went back to the "scene of the crime" to assess all of it. It made us appreciate the life we have now even though it's becoming to be challenging.

I felt raring to go today and had a lot accomplished. I was able to get up at my usual happy time - at 5 am to make breakfast for two. We both went on our way to work. I had a pretty good meeting about what the school will be doing in 2017. We were planning for what our vision of what we wanted to happen. It's nice to know that there are people who are sticking long term. It just feels really really good.

After, I had some time to rest and work on my "side-line" and then I went to my first day at smart driving class.

I have no idea how many times I kept saying OH MY GAHD that the instructor teasingly pointed that out to this little quirk of mine. After more than an hour of driving in the rain which was pouring down pretty hard, I guess I got tired. I kept forgetting to change clutch and the car kept on jerking so much. Ack. How embarrassing.

I walked home after but not before stopping to get some 3-in-1 even if I have a freagin' Keurig. I realized that I stopped walking like an asshole pedestrian. Now, suddenly, I had this awareness of what a driver would do. And with one driving class? Pffft. Look at me with my megalight perspective of the road.

SO many good things happening. Yesterday, Tita Net, Ate Nina and Tito Boxer visited me here in the house. It was a little bit embarrassing because he was here. He actually just came over. Talk about timing. So somewhere around talking with my surprise family visitors, I introduced him to them only because my cousin wanted to look at how I set up my room so he had to come out. There were some tears between me and Tita about how I am kinda in a hole which surprisingly she felt. I basked in so much kindness and caring and real family love.

And of course, the other kind of love, too. :)
3rd-Jan-2017 08:31 am - Poem #1

Wrote this just barely two weeks ago. This should remind me how good life can be.

Sa higpit ng yakap

At haplos ng kamay

Muling napawi ang kaba

Ng bukas

Wala nang gugustuhin pa

Kundi ang iyong tahimik na salita

Na humahagod

Sa pagod kong damdamin

Pipikit sa himbing

Ng payapang gabi

Parehas tayong nakakapit

Sa walang hanggang ngayon

645am dec 20 2016

1st-Jan-2017 12:47 am - Goodbye 2016

Last year was a big year for me and I'm just relieved it's all over. Things I've accomplished included:

1. Moved THREE times. Move 3 was to a different country.

2. Stopped my meds cold turkey. Med free since '016.

3. Year of being single. That's a whole freagin year since I was 15.

4. Took and failed a licensure exam. Got out of it alive.

5. Fired someone for the first time.

6. Ran the school by myself. Lived life by myself.

7. The year I did my most adulting tasks including handling government bureaucracies. Handled it pretty well.

8. My toughest year. Hence, the year where I most peacefully handled life's challenges. The year where most growing up took place.

Bye 2016. Hello 2017.

29th-Dec-2016 07:44 pm - Life's Challanges

Upon some reflection and prayer, I think I understand this wall that I keep hitting on.

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24th-Dec-2016 01:12 pm - T'was the days before Christmas

It's the day before Christmas and I'm here on my uber ride home to my mom.

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